Measures {art and me}

I feel like I have barely been here this week...the days have been speeding by and I've been so busy with freelance stuff that I have not even had a small, itty bitty chance to work on my own stuff...to think, to breathe...to untie my brain. Seriously, that's what it feels like...my brain feels bound and gagged...sitting in a corner while I work on all of these deadlines. And through the duct tape I hear it going 'mmmmf...what about me!! mmmmfff!'

Not to say doing work for another studio other than my own studio, another name, is not rewarding...it is. But, I have a really, really hard time getting back to my own ideas after working on other people's ideas so intensely...getting feedback, criticism, working in edits...all that. It can be rough when you've been your own boss for a while. I for one start hearing their voices in my head, even when I'm looking at work that is completely independent of those projects.

Although yes-- it's always great, professionally, to be able to be mindful and collaborative with other people. And working with other people is something I truly enjoy. But, there comes a time when you have to ask yourself...'is this really about *my* best interests...and if not, why?" If it's just that something is hard...well, that is not a good enough reason. But, if it's that you feel your focus needs to be somewhere else...or that you're spreading out too thin...then, that seems noteworthy.

Artwork: 2 pieces I've seen and loved at the Drawing Center. Thought the contrast felt right today.
left: GEGO
right: Alan Saret

Comments

[Melissa de la Fuente]

I totally understand.....that IS a difficult place to be in. I have no fear though, that once unbound, your brilliant mind will be right as rain! :) These two pieces are so evocative and I love the extremes.
xo
Melis